November 3, 2009

I clean our guest bathroom only to have a son pee all over the floor an hour after an hour before my sweet in-laws are to arrive.  I physically carry my six year old screaming to school and walk away through tears. I pick up another son who is under a table at chick-fil-a eating the crumbs of other peoples food.  “I don’t want to eat that” cries another son out of an ungrateful and spoiled heart.  These are the things of life that inconvenience me and try my patience as a parent.  Why can’t they get it? and then I hear God whisper the same thing to me.

He has cleansed me and washed me-I go and mess it all up- He comes back again and cleans me…after all He just wants me to be ready for His arrival. “Wash away all my iniquity and cleanse me from my sin.” Psalm 51:2

I go through some days kicking and screaming in rebellion and through tears… sometimes He leaves me there..knowing its what is best for my life.   At the end of the day I will come home- glad I went through it after all(my son did).  “Come let us return to the Lord..He has torn us to pieces BUT He will heal us, He has injured us but will bind up our wounds..He will restore us that we may live in His presence.”  Hosea 6

I continue to beg for crumbs…He  tenderly picks me up and shows me the feast He has prepared for me. “you prepare a table before me…my cup overflows…surely goodness and love will follow me.” Psalm 23

 I throw His kindness back in His face and say “I don’t like this”  and expose my ungrateful and spoiled heart. God remains stedfast and so patient with me…”The Lord, the Lord, the compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger abounding in love and faithfulness, maintaining love to thousands, forgiving wickedness, rebellion, and sin.” Exodus 34:6

As my days live out I pray that when my impatience arises(and it will) that he will remind me…and whisper His patience to me.

Comments

What a great thoughtful post Judith. Great reminder of God’s patience before I turn the page on this day. Thanks.

 

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